Time for a Change

I’m officially one frustrated, aggravated, absolutely pissed off woman anymore.

I’ve gotten to the point where I am overly frustrated with life and with the way things are. I’m pretty much floating through life right now hoping for different.

It’s time for a change.

There are some things that are outside of my control, like the bullshit that other people choose to put me through. However, there are ways that I can combat that bullshit. Plus, there’s also that little thing called kicking people out of my life.

There are other things that are within my control. My problem, unfortunately, is two-fold: getting over the feeling of failure with even the slightest stumble…and avoiding the feelings of procrastination and apathy creeping into my mind.

Sigh.

I’m trying my hardest to keep it together, but I have to admit that it’s difficult. I’ve been told to pray on the situation, but there have been times that I believed that God had/has given up on me.

I’ve tried telling myself that things will get better…but a part of me refuses to believe it. I try telling myself that I’m still standing, but a cynical part of me constantly asks what my definition of “still standing” is.

Again, it’s time for a change.

It’s funny…I mentioned a couple of the things I wanted to accomplish on my Facebook page and asked for people to join me. Instead, I got people who wanted to sell me on some other stuff rather than what I was trying to accomplish. So, I’ve come to the conclusion that either I’m on my own or I need to find people who are on the same page as me.

Don’t get me wrong. Recently, I’ve taken some baby steps in the right direction. However, I’ve stumbled quite a few times already. I’m trying to roll with the punches, but it’s been difficult at best.

So now the question on my mind is this: where do I go from here?